In Retospect

When you look back in retrospect
Remember hindsight is always perfect

You've broken vows,now you repent
Cry over time you've ill-spent
Regret the choices that you made
Curse the places where you stayed
Rue the sights that you have seen
And how reckless you have been

You wish you knew better then
But stop!... and think again-
You loved every spontanious act!
Don't deny it! It is a fact.

Junkie

"Shit happens!" you say. "And sometimes it's better
Not to let the pain and hurt register."

You lose yourself in smoky inhumanity,
But grass isn't greener on the other side of sanity.

Weeds have long since turned ur dreams to hash,
And all that's left of them is scattered ash.

But you refuse to admit, with stubborn indignation,
That your life's just one long hallucination.

For Mama

Behold me not as the little girl
That I once used to be
But as the woman I have become
Whence life's counsel has wisened me

Behold not the childish face
That betrays a shred of innocence
But the woman's eyes that are alight
With worldly intelligence

Behold not the the child i was
Nor my adolescent years
But the sum of all that my life has been
With my triumphs and my fears